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Thanks for listening.
the only thing I can think to say
when someone comes up
to compliment me
after I do performance
it seems important to say that
and also mean it
also what else do you do
funny off stage though
nothing to say afterwards
nothing important
or particularly interesting
you want the pretty girls
to (want to) touch you
you're a net of exposed nerve
-ends and libido
or sick with anger, getting mad
that more people don't come up
to talk to you
you scowl like you know how to.
never occurs to you
that they are shy too
that you're intimidating
that they don't know
what to say to you
either
if I knew what to say
to people
I wouldn't write poetry
people wouldn't want to talk
to me, as much, I think
I offer remarkably little
as a person
except my opinion
there are some parts missing
from my personality now
that would make me
a better more caring
more sensitive person
but by the same token
their absence
doesn't bother me
the part that's shy of public speaking
and posing for photographs
and saying no to people
and saying yes
an interest and talent in talking a point
puts you in a funny position
people will want more of you
than there is, and get mad at you when they discover it's not there
Fuck you.
Fuck me.
Fuck them.
Fuck it, let's dance.
our four stages.
wearing a safari hat
used to be enough separation for me
from me
things caught up
people catch on
and you can't just be yourself
because you wouldn't be a fucking performance poet if you just be yourself
I forget these things
and repeat the cycle
later this year I will meet my idol
number one source
the most influential poet in my life
he is from Texas
we will do a gig together
in Sydney
I have spoken his words out loud
while looking at Mount Everest
the edge of the Algerian Sahara
and while falling out of the sky
from fifteen thousand feet
...and I will have nothing worthwhile to say to him
it will hurt a little, probably more everything worth saying between us
already got extracted from our lives
and used here
maybe I will just get a photo
with my new buddy instead
then I will go chase at pretty girls
give up, get drunk
think I'm famous
inside a very small room,
thanks for listening.
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-Peace.
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