.
you can hold
a crowd of hundreds
with more comfort
than carrying a conversation
with one other
you get asked
how you can seem
so confident up there
by people not noticing
the nerves off stage
talking back to them
eyebrow wrestle sweat
the gasping air scratch
hugging yourself
for the space it makes
that knows everything about
you
have told them everything about
you
can't remember umm, anybody's name
anybody watching you
hammering your head
so hard into this art
that it now has it's own corners
to fold needs into
wrists hungry cold
for hands to hold
horny breathing fistfuls
of words unrehearsed
and un-prepared words
more words
words covered with words
in a one sided title fight
one hand tied behind the backs
of claps and laughs
they like you fuck me
-fuck me-
they really like you
if only you
could be that you
in person or
as a person
you act-modest badly
your performance
of a normal person
is abnormally mediocre
unusual at best
casual conversation
feels like being heckled
or an improv
you're unprepared for
living gig-to-gig
until the show boat spills over
and she just bails out
yet again
because you got nothing
to talk about except...
what you got to talk about
just being yourself
doesn't work so well
for a performer
or maybe this is just another stage
another stage you need to get through
where it's real life
that gives you stage fright
_______________________________________________
"We're actors~ the opposite of people."
Tom Stoppard -Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead
-Peace
.
you can hold
a crowd of hundreds
with more comfort
than carrying a conversation
with one other
you get asked
how you can seem
so confident up there
by people not noticing
the nerves off stage
talking back to them
eyebrow wrestle sweat
the gasping air scratch
hugging yourself
for the space it makes
that knows everything about
you
have told them everything about
you
can't remember umm, anybody's name
anybody watching you
hammering your head
so hard into this art
that it now has it's own corners
to fold needs into
wrists hungry cold
for hands to hold
horny breathing fistfuls
of words unrehearsed
and un-prepared words
more words
words covered with words
in a one sided title fight
one hand tied behind the backs
of claps and laughs
they like you fuck me
-fuck me-
they really like you
if only you
could be that you
in person or
as a person
you act-modest badly
your performance
of a normal person
is abnormally mediocre
unusual at best
casual conversation
feels like being heckled
or an improv
you're unprepared for
living gig-to-gig
until the show boat spills over
and she just bails out
yet again
because you got nothing
to talk about except...
what you got to talk about
just being yourself
doesn't work so well
for a performer
or maybe this is just another stage
another stage you need to get through
where it's real life
that gives you stage fright
_______________________________________________
"We're actors~ the opposite of people."
Tom Stoppard -Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead
-Peace
.
