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I would have much rather been remembered not as the difficult genius but as a good guy."
I was haunted by Orson Welles' last interview for a long time. When I was in hospital overnight in 2012, I had no visitors and few well wishers. I made it like that. It didn't feel good.
I remember thinking about Orson Welles, while lying there alone. I was a lot more isolated from family and friends and people back then.
Now I want to say thanks to everyone. Those who called, those who came to visit, and still those who gave me the space I asked for, because yeah there's only so much interaction I can handle.
I think if I died today, now, I would be remembered as a good guy. One of the good guys. That's important to me.
Of course, it would be nice to have the greatest film ever made under my belt as well, but instead I have "Breasts!"... I can live with that.
I mean die with it, whatever.
Yeah, I feel like whatever stubbornly mercurial artistically-justified self-consciously angry path I was on a few years ago, has been altered. I'm not the idiot things I write. Hell, even they aren't the idiotic things they write (themselves) anymore.
I don't need to be remembered, there is no legacy here. For now, I am a good guy, and I am very much alive.
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